songs...

5 current favorites:

1. Deep - by Binoculars
2. Big Hard Sun - by Eddie Vedder
3. Fear of the South - by Tin Hat Trio (music piece)
4. Collide - by Howie Day
5. Out of my League - Stephen Speaks

'D' School

Back then, being schooled,

I enthusiastically hogged on letters,

Rolled them into words with my tongue,

Swallowed them so as to form sentences while tripping down my throat,

Till they finally settled down and got digested in my stomach.

This, to me they said was growing up.

Now that they say is done,

Am braving indigestion, burping out sentences,

Trying to bite them into words again, chew them back in.

So much for trying, I am only puking out letters, not just the ones I had,

Throwing out much more than what I thought I ever could all these years.

This, to them I say is growing up.

Flapping hard...

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The wall is sucking on my head,

the worms feeding on my eyes,

my ears are flapping with desperation,

my tongue licking on disguise…

my nose is a mere witness…

to the most heinous of crimes…

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Red, blood!!?! Flows across my eyes…

Significant, is it!!?! Maybe…

Imperative for my existence….

Red, blood!!?! Dripping from my nose,

No puddle; isn’t there!!?! Maybe not…

An infestation of my mind…

My veins, green…

Deceased, my body?

Drained, my mind?

.

He feeds on my miseries, is barely ever starved...

Closure

Pierce me with a sword,
Roll it inside me.
Let it be.

Now, another one.
Just above the first one.
Pull it out, in again.

Pull them out.
Now,Take three of them,
Rip me apart,
Stab me brutally.

Thanks. Because for me, its closure.

songs...

5 current favorites:

1. Sunscreen song: Baz Luhrman
2. Tear drops on my guitar: Taylor Swift
3. Scotty Doesn't know: Lustra (warning- explicit lyrics)
4. It'll all work out: Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers
5. Build me up buttercup: The Foundations

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searching for the perfect ending?!??
hah!!
an ending is an ending after all...

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am trying too hard for too many things...i should not...but i can not, not...
turning back has never ever been this difficult...